Do you ever feel like it is just a foregone conclusion that you are going to relapse? I've been thinking that today. I've been thinking that I'm probably gonna slip this weekend so why not get it over with? I've been doing searches online without clicking links and letting my thoughts linger on previous pictures and videos. It's been a tough 24 hours and I am not looking forward to this weekend.
Snap out of it man! You are just setting yourself up to fail. You got through last weekend OK. Why should this weekend be any different? You need to stop searching for triggers. Stop your mind dwelling in sex and reliving previous images of porn you have viewed. It is not easy, but you have got to be strict with yourself or you won't get anywhere. Get busy physically and in your mind and you will emerge from the weekend unscathed.
My brain has been sending down those same conversations the last couple days. Don't listen to that first thought, or second, or the third. Realize that this is your mind itching to get that jolt of dopamine! It is killing me, but I refuse to give in to my old logic. Hang on, going to be a bumpy ride, but we can get past this!
WORK OUT READ A BOOK or watch a non sexual movie like a mob or sports movie go for a ten minute walk than come back, anything but relapse , think of the lowered mental state you'll be in
Get heart rate up. Exercise vigorously even for just 10 or 15 minutes. Then Cold shower. It'll give you a shot of good drugs and wake you up.
Listen to me, RIGHT NOW! Do not relapse. If you do, you will create more self doubt, and the worst feeling in the world is knowing that you aren't in control of yourself, that you can't rely and trust yourself. Giving up porn is the right thing to. If you can't follow what is right despite being fully aware, then you will find yourself in a deep, black hole. Keep fighting man. Never surrender. Don't lose yourself to this evil. Fight the demons, don't let them overtake and conquer you. And remember, it is never too late to start fighting with every ounce of your soul, because God is always there for you. And if you don't believe in God, and relapse, then who is going to help you but Him? If you relapse, you just jerked off and came to a poor woman being objectified and used and humiliated. That is a depraved act. How would you feel if that was your mother, sister, or daughter? Well, that woman in that porn video, she is one of those things to another person. Porn is true evil, and getting pleasure out of it is worse than stealing, drugs, etc. So don't relapse. And because you've already wronged your soul by practicing this evil in the past, who in the world is capable of pulling you up and completely revitalizing your soul? God. Remember, whether you choose to believe in Him or Not doesn't matter. He doesn't care. It is you who NEEDS him. If you don't listen to me now, then you will regret the longer you go without Him.
