I don't know if I completely understand you post but my guess is that you relapsed?? If so I'm glad your here and talking about it.
I have done similar to you a number of times. It is very discouraging! But get up, dust yourself off, and try again. And this time, take it one day at a time. Don't worry about 65 days. Besides, a lot of good changes have already started in your brain (and spirit), so keep going. You still have momentum behind you!