Mr.Chips

Yesterday I felt emotional loneliness and emptiness, there was a reason I think, came up from my work. This morning I had a wet dream proceeded with a lot of urges, I edged to fantasies, then to internet couple of times, each for couple of minutes then a quit.

Currently I am fine, I stopped all the edging factors, and recommitted. I passed the 80 days. Hopefully I can stick to this and avoid any future edging to stay clean as I am planning to have my marriage soon In Sha Allah

How are you owly?

For lunch I had Campbell soup and peanut butter sandwich. For supper I had salami and having...ugh an adult beverage.
But I am doing okay. Had a nice walk, where I went to some grocery stories. Pretty exciting stuff.

That is pretty new stuff to me, seems exciting indeed

Both of us ameeen

Yes i cant leave its peace :p

Haha yeah Alhamdulillah
No doubt it is peaceful

I like the movie lol

Since they dropped these values everything became a mess. The main factor for this is money. Filthy money is easier to make and more profitable. Looking at what most people need and making it harder to get, then offer it by the way you want it

we are a casualty of social experiments. let's keep pushing and overcome

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I hope your day gets better @Mr.Chips

Thanks, Danny, same to you. Things are stable now. Have a shining weekend

When I'm away from edging I feel a lot stable and almost like I am almost out of this addiction loop, but once an edge occurs it puts me under a lot of emotional, intellectual and sexual instability.

I hope this day passes peacefully, I'll work on investing in the rest of the day. And continue my path.

I hope everyone here is doing well. Don't give up okay? once you live a period without slipping into these materials you will feel much better than right now in case you are in a relapse period.

I realise that this period of days up to 140 will be challenging for me from time to time

I'm really tired zee. it has been a year, and again relapsed.. and still obsessed. I want a direction. I am in a state where I don't know what to do.

How are you feeling now? Any better?

Alhamdulellah. Things are under control. Thanks for asking

وفقك الله صديقي العزيز.

اجمعين

Anuu Cheeki Breeki

The sense of misery doesn't stop. Despite all the efforts in every aspect. They seem like zero. Nothing.

But i am happy. Because this misery is not about porn this time, but the real life struggles

{and do not obey one whose heart We have made heedless of Our remembrance and who follows his desire and whose affair is ever [in] neglect.} (18:28)

{But as for he who feared the position of his Lord and prevented the soul from [unlawful] inclination. Then indeed, Paradise will be [his] refuge.} (78-79:41)

And so, I'm going to continue my streak. Will take care of the same strategies I started. By keeping my phone clean, and reminding myself with the truth of this addiction and staying busy in life. Until I fully recover and then marry the wife whom I deserve and whom she really deserve to have as a husband.

Love you tooo

No lovvvveee yoooouu mooorrree

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