day 29, feeling lonely when i woke up at 5:20AM did my workout 3x9 pushups 6x10 abs 3x10 lifting 10kg of water each arm sorting my resumes i have in disorder, some things needs to be put in order !
514 days no PMO, semen retention I had sex yesterday, it's been 3 months since the last time. Poor girl I had no mercy haha. I'm feeling with an extra boost of energy, that is the good thing of sex the extra energy. I just woke up and saw a girl a beautiful fitness girl texted me when are we having sex. It is a bit tempting only because of the extra energy. But that is greedines, I got my fair share. Also I'm a loyal man.
Yeah but I was on that site for like 4-5 mins. So staying there was my choice ig. So i relapsed. But I didn't fap, thats good.
day 30 ! i am officially a jedi ! i have walked outside for most of the day, i had no time to workout. i learned i girl i liked had a boyfriend (LOL) too bad, she's not responsible for my anger. i feel fine now, but even though i knew i had to let go if necessary, i felt kinda horrible. it felt right, but i felt bad. my goal is not to have a girlfriend, even though it motivates me. my goal is to be able to. i am not. i have not been reliable for long enough to handle the coexistence with another human being at an intimate level. BUT what i can do is train my tolerance, for this rejection. may the Force be with you !
