Hello to all, Am 38 years and have been sucked into the online thing since I started using the computer in college. When I started using computers(around 1997), it was cybersex chatting and images - however in recent years with the ease of porn videos available online, I have been watching a lot of porn and masturbating. I have been in a denial mode for the last few years even after noticing the decrease in erection and lack of performance. While having sex, I have had to switch my mind(kinda like inserting a porn video tape into my brain) to think that I was having sex with some hottie from a porn video or imagine rough sex or some other extreme things and only then I could perform. Have had to resort to taking pills in order to have sex - in a way I feel ashamed/embarrassed sometimes at myself for not being able to have normal sex and erections. Also been losing hair - I wonder if its due to excessive PMO. Also, when I see a woman my brain functions sexually and I begin to undress the woman in my thoughts - something's not right - I wasn't like this before. When I started, it was about just watching normal sex - after a few months, the brain wanted something more than normal sex - then it was something more......in a way, I spend quite a bit of time flipping through online videos just get to something different/weird in order to get off. What a waste of time!! I read about NoFap on yourbrainonporn which led me here, read a few threads and journals and felt that this might work for me if I stick to it and have some fellow NoFap'pers motivate me while I challenge myself and also motivate others. I really hope to gather myself and do something about this mess am in. I want to say hello to everyone and say thank you for creating a community where folks can vent out and motivate themselves to a better future and life. Cheers!
@Velu, yes we can do it - I feel motivated especially seeing that my fellow Fapstronauts are also fighting off urges in an effort to overcome PMO. Yes, I want to fight P and kick the habit that has taken away countless precious hours of my life.
Take it one day at a time and set short term goals like 30 days or less and work hard to achieve it. Its gonna be worth it.
