I have known about NoFap for about a year now but I never officially joined the NoFap community. I have taken the challenge myself and the longest I went without PMO was 33 days. To this day I am still extremely proud of myself of this achievement. However over the summer I found out I had a mental disorder (clinical OCD) and since then my fervor to strive to go without PMO is gone. Before last summer I could easily go without PMO for weeks (never surpassing more than 4 weeks though), but now its extremely difficult for me to even pass one day. Literally the longest I have gone without O since last summer was 10 days, and even then every other day had P&M in that 10 day streak. I find it even more difficult now because I'm a college student and 1/3 of all girls wear leggings, the other third wears sweatpants, and the last third wears tight jeans. There's temptation to go home and fap every where I look. I know fully well that porn is similar to a drug in that you get used to it and thus look for "harder ways" to satisfy your urges. My addiction currently takes me to messaging apps, Omegle, and Skype looking for ways to trade live nudes and videos with girls. This is what I am most ashamed of because 2 years ago I would have never thought of doing this, but now I do it and it feels like I do it every other day. I'm a Christian (deeply flawed of course like all other Christians, Muslims, Atheists, and all other humans) and I think its morally wrong as well to look at porn and trade nudes. I just want to live a life without PMO. Thank you for reading this, I just relapsed today after a two day streak and decided enough is enough and today is the day I'll join the NoFap community.
Well I think its a big start for you to come and open up your vulnerabilities with us. So props to that. It's a tough addiction to break, I am trying myself after 15 years of PMO nearly every day just like you. But where there's a will there's a way. I would try first by deleting all porn, all bookmarks, clear your history, get a good porn blocker. Remove any apps or chat programs where you trade porn. All of this can be replaced with new, better, and positive things that will help improve your life. Your brain is just used to this habit, but the great thing is you can get it hooked on something else and leave porn behind. Set up a goal (even if it's a week) and try to hit it without PMO. Once you hit that, try for even more. Even if you fail, just get back up and try again. I would fill your time when you're alone with other things , reading, cooking, new hobbies, whatever interests you. It's time to forget about porn!
Thanks for the tips! There was a point where I almost completely replaced PMO with working out and learning languages. It was awesome finding out that getting hooked on hobbies and exercising could replace my porn habits. Recently I've relapsed really badly and need to find my passion for these things again. It feels like an uphill battle but that's why I named this account "Vincimus". Its Latin for "we shall conquer"!
