I try, I really do when it comes to quitting porn. But it's very difficult when I know I'll never get out because I can't date. Too much of a creepy weirdo to women even though I'm not ugly. I'm autistic. PIED is so bad I practically can't get hard but I wonder if that's a blessing because I feel almost zero attraction to women when I'm out and about. Don't wanna approach and get into drama or bullshit, just deal with my business. Approaching just leads to rejection anyway.
Tbh I wish I could have zero attraction to women like you. But who said people don't like someone autistic? Someone may like you because you are. We mistakenly think that one should look and sound the best way while the opposite is true. Just be yourself and you'll find the good person for you. Now that doesn't mean you shouldn't try to improve your social skills if you think you're lacking in that aspect. I think going out with small groups of people is the best practice. 1-2 friends. So that you can find the room to take part of conversations. Just my 2 cents
"I can't date" "Too much of a creepy weirdo to women" "I'm autistic" Sounds to me like you're just putting limiters on yourself. Stop. Stop right now. Think these thoughts instead - "I CAN date." "I decide how I portray myself to women" "I may have autism but I'll still try my best, nothing's stopping me!" Nothing is impossible if you work on yourself my friend. Don't let your mind and your thoughts control you. You control your mind and thoughts. Choose what you think. Change your mindset, that's the first step to transformation! Start working out and groom yourself to build confidence. To improve your social skills try to socialize with people online and get conversations going and then progress towards real life.
Why did you wish to be no longer be attracted to women? And me personally, I tried "being myself" and got rejected hard because I wasn't neurotypical. I have my few (albeit mostly male) friends and hobbies, but I consider dating and anything beyond maybe casual flings to be a lost cause.
My brother in christ, I thought this way BEFORE getting brootally rejected to the point of blackpill.
Because they are constant triggers to me. I can't just do my thing in peace. And Sakuragi got rejected 50 times so what lol. No seriously it is in fact a good thing to get rejected than start dating then get rejected. Those women were not a fit for you and that's OK. It's how you look at it.
You can if you get rejected at every turn and told, whether directly or indirectly, that approaching is creepy. Side effects might include crushed self-esteem and desire to rope.
Those side effects originate from how you look at those rejections. You can just thank God for saving you from the hustle of an unsuccessful relationship and move on. Or you can beat yourself up and think you're not worthy. Save your energy for the right one bro.
I'm gonna tell you something similar to what I told the last guy that said he was blackpilled: Get that shit out your life. Going down that path will lead to nothing but pain and suffering. Remove all videos of the incel nature from your feed on youtube. I don't know you personally, but as someone who was once an incel (albeit, before that culture took off) my biggest mistake was blaming others for not getting dates or friends. I'm also getting some serious depressive vibes from you as well. It reminds me of when I was at my lowest suicidal self. Everything felt like a haze for me, like the world was this permanent greyscale, but as I and a few others can attest to, many of my depressive symptoms went away when I started to remove PMO from my life. It isn't all gone, but it feels more manageable now than it ever has. As for the rejection and people call you creepy? Forget about them and work on yourself. If you aren't whole without a lover, how can you expect to be whole with one? Work on being the best you possible. You'd be surprised how being confident in yourself can attract others to you. It's gonna take time, but if you focus on one step at a time, you might find your self at the door you need to go through for lasting change before you know it.
And I have no one autistic people before because I work with many of them and I know quite a few that are actually older and married and really doing well in life so don’t let your ideas keep you from having the life that you should have right now
