¯\_ಠ_ಠ_/¯ dude you are a strong man, cahser can be troublesome but it's not stronger than you, not even close.
The energy once you had is still inside u bro. It's waiting for u. You just need to grab it again.All da best!
I remember how strong you were man. I am sure you will come back really soon. Welcome back my friend. Show us how it is done.
It is a bit of a hollow feeling when familiar users are no longer active definitely... but it is great you are back!! Thank you for your shows of appreciation =)