Hello all. I'm starting today. I've tried to quit before, but my success always lasted less than a week. If I'm honest, my real streak is about three days before starting to peek, and by day four or five it's back to square one. I've been struggling with this addiction for a very long time. The last few years have been the worst. Quality of life has been extremely low. Low self esteem, low self worth, not getting anywhere in life. It's definitely time for change. Hell, change is well past due. I'd like to quit altogether. No PMO, no MO, etc. and focus on making myself a better life. I realize it will be hard. As I said, I've tried before. I realize success can be measured many ways, not necessarily a long streak. For me, keeping it down to once a day would be a phenomenal. Once a week would be monumental. But, I know that if I'm still doing it at all, even once a month, there is always a great danger that I will fall back into the same pattern of despair. I'm glad I've found this resource. There seems to be a lot of people here willing to help. I particularly like the success stories section of the forum. Those stories give me hope that I too can finally get out of this mess. It's been about 24 hours now. I want to leave a good success story here. Thanks in advance for all your help, and good luck to everyone out there fighting the fight.
Thanks. One of my long term goals is to find a meaningful relationship, but that's not the only reason I'm doing this.
Getting back on track. I reset my counter late last week, because I had started edging and I wanted to be honest. Then I began thinking; "We'll, if I'm resetting my counter anyways, might as well MO.". This was a terrible mistake, as it led to an incredible binge which I have only just been able to come out of. Every time we fail, we learn a little more to go forward with.
