No worries, you made an effort and made progress and now you have another shot at getting to day and can come to it with more motivation that comes with the pain of relapse, I struggle with this too but I sense that looking back and remembering that pain and then looking forward to the life of sobriety might give you perspective to push past the urge a little longer and we can push back enough times to pick up another streak and eventually we can pick up enough momentum to climb to higher and higher plateaus
I feel your predicament and can only confirm how hard this is. Just the fact that you came back here to seek help again is a victory itself. One thing that I'm trying, often with mixed results, is to remind myself that this is my top priority as it will provide me the foundation to reach all of my other goals, so doing anything besides this be it exercising, reading, binging television, you name it, is a victory and if I can string enough of these tiny victories together I can lift myself to a higher plateau where even if I relapse again I won't lose my progress or my habits and can start over and reach another higher plateau until I finally get to reboot and maybe even beyond. Hope this might help some
Day 7/7 (Thank god) will move to the next challenge and hopefully push a whole month and lift myself out of the rut I've been in longer than I can remember
