Re-introduction and Pledge

I had an account here previously, a few years back. Discontinued and closed it. But the problem hasn't gone away, so I've re-registered.

Older male, two grown sons each with one child. Happily married but in a relationship which is now platonic, as I don't relate sexually to my partner. That is the consequence of various factors, one of them my own broken-ness. But I figure once you're a grandparent then you ought to be able to do without.

I have successfully given up cigarettes, to which I was addicted for years, long since. This month I'm participating in fund-raiser requiring abstinence from alcohol, and I can do that too.

I have one simple aim: not resetting. I've joined again to set the counter, and not reset it. My pattern is: infrequent, but persistent. I will go for weeks, but not for months. Whenever I do it, I feel guilt, I feel deeply that it's wrong. I know that is not a fashionable attitude but there it is. I'm a practicing Buddhist, and it falls under the third precept, 'not to engage in sexual misconduct'; to me, all porn is sexual misconduct (both on the part of the participants and also those who watch it.)

So - probably won't be that active a contributor, will check in from time to time, but I want that counter to get to three digits. That is my pledge.

 

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