My story, So where to start? I'll give an outlook amd my current standing with what's going on besides what led up to this. My life right now consists of work, porn, masterbation and finding any new thing that really gets me off and it's getting scary. Sure I love just to get off to porn but its leading to new fantasies that I'm acting on that isn't good seeing as you can see it all in porn I now want it to become reality. So it starts where I find something that's new to me and I do it for a couple weeks while I get off really hard from it till it dies down then I find something new. At first it started with joining random free video chats online where I could expose myself to random people till i came hard. That died down and it went onto getting off from driving around while masterbating. Then it went to parking next to people and jacking off till they caught me and cumming really quit to leave before confrontation. Lately it's been hiding out at a park till a woman or man walks by and jacking off in front of them till I cum. As you see it's all progressing to illegal stuff. Theres porn involved with all of this on my phone. I'm always in womens messages trying to find new random women to hook up with to find someone to do it all with. If I cant find women I'll turn to men to swap head with but I cant look at them cause I'm not into men or else my erection will go away weird I know. I'll even bottom for them if they want me to cause well we all know prostate orgasms are intense but no way in hell can I top a guy. I get off a few times a day whether I'm at work or home. I get one little thought and bam it's time to get off. The couple days I'll make myself go without watching porn or jacking off I dont have any issues with thoughts about doing any illegal activity or finding someone to get off with but I can never get it to last longer then that. Idk if this page will even help cause I could easily message someone on here and know were both on here for the same thing and it can turn me on and then bam jacking off or turning the conversation sexual so idk what to do
Well you'r porn fantasies are escalated because of novelty .As for controling it well its really hard and not that easy thing because you'r mind is wired to porn and it needs to reset.You need to understand that you'r mind spend long time on porn and and this even became habit for you .Why is it hard? well sometimes our brains don't want to change they don't like changes so that's why there are withdrawal from addictions..I would reccomend installing some protection like K9 or something to block porn on you'r phone and internet. And get informed about this read this books : Wack To be addicted to internet porn" by Noah B. Church which is free and there are some tips how to recover . "You'r Brain on porn by Gary Wilson - first doctor who started to realize porn problems and started helping a lot of people recovering from it . there is his website there are useful information their too. https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/
yourbrainonporn.com really helped me! we all know "porn is bad, mmmkay" but I want to know WHY is it bad, how is it fucking up my brain. Good luck brother, thank you for sharing so honestly. If you haven't already you need to cut out all porn and masturbating in public. Keep us posted on your progress
We’re all on the same boat first of all, the biggest challenge I had my not necessarily be your however the common denominator is selfishness, yup all of us ,, especislly me ♂️. If you think about some of the things you are doing whAt would happen not If but WHEN you get caught??? I’ve known guys who started with peeping Tom fetishes to actually stalking women to the point cops have been called , don’t risk it , my escape was the gym and even then it’s a challenge ,but find something or someone that can distract/ help you when these feelings occur , if your a religious person find a good church, if not find a GOOD same sex support group don’t be like me and spend decades fighting this it’s not worth it , I’ve gone to the extreme of removing TVs from my house and ending relationship that didn’t support my progress , you gotta find what sacrifices you need to make to help you find that inner peace ,, best of luck you got this,
