Day 5 or 6 of 7.... i cant remember. Today my brain tried a new trick " ... ya know buddy, ... you really like P. Aint no big deal, you like it. "..... Nice try asshole. Not today.
Day 6 winding down. Still feeling mildly dead inside if I'm honest. (I know that doesn't sound surprising when I'm only on day 6 but I was feeling this way for a while on my previous streak [which was only interrupted by some edging one night that I immediately regretted] so it feels like I've been waiting for this feeling to go away naturally for a long time. Still I've never felt more determined to go the distance. If you're going through hell, guys, keep going. You are so much stronger than this addiction and you're so above it.
Day 0 today. When I'm 105 I'll remember that 10 January 2018 was the first day of the rest of my life.
Day 3/7 complete. It's amazing how much the difficulty of rebooting changes almost by the minute. Idleness is bad, like really bad. Keeping myself busy and productive is critical, as is avoidance of triggers. Watching TV is among the worst since it combines both of those aspects (triggers + idle time). But, on the flip side, accountability - even to a bunch of online strangers - helps tremendously. I'd like to say it's getting easier, but it's not. Not getting more difficult with each passing day either - it's really just a moment by moment thing. I guess that's the nature of urges - they pass if you just give them a little time...
Successfully completed day 1! It was somewhat tough for me since there were so many triggers that I could have fallen into just from going to school and the occasional use of social media. I'm trying to significantly reduce my social media usage, and so far it's helping. Day 2 here we come!
I got till 6 days. That was my best streak till date. Now starting again. Learned a lot during the last run.
So, back after a few busy hectic days offline. Relapse come this Sunday, and was a daily occurance with Masturbation til today. So back to square one even though I think I am still set and rolling with freedom from porn since but I did check put a clip a girl sent me months ago on Monday so I should say It is square one again, and that is fine! I never expected me to make on my first attempt. do I believe I will now, on my second? Doubt it but I remain optimistic and hopeful abput myself and the future which is the key I believe. Hope you all enjoy a great Wednesday with nofap and joy and harmony!
